I'll start of by saying right off the bat that I feel a bit strange talking about ageing since I am, after all, only 30 years old. But I can't help but think about it anyways. I keep telling myself that I'm just being silly, that I'm only imagining things and that I should think about how the 85-year-old woman hobbling down the street feels.
Am I the only one that wonders about these old ladies, all hunched over and taking one minute to walk 10 metres? What do they feel that they have to walk like this? Are they in horrible pain? Is it really arthritis or is the problem with their muscles? I just can't imagine a day when I would have to walk like this. But I have to.
Maybe this sounds ridiculous, but I am noticing the signs of ageing. It has nothing to do with turning 30 (although this is a blatant reminder that I am ageing) because I started to feel it 2 years ago.
So what's wrong then?
My right leg.
About 2 years ago I started to notice that it would hurt when I spent large amounts of time sitting at home working. The longer I went without exercising, the worse the pain became.
The pain is localized in my calf muscles. I have no pain in my other leg or in any other part of my right leg. So basically I feel pain in my calf muscles from the knee to the ankle of my right leg. The pain has been strong enough that it has kept my from sleeping at night.
I went to see my doctor to discuss the problem with my leg right after I came back from Canada after Christmas. The pain had been awful there as it was so cold that I never went outside walking. What did she say? That I have a circulation problem. What? How can that be already? Doesn't that happen to older women?
She prescribed compression stockings. I had to go to the pharmacy to get a fitting done for the stockings because you have to wear socks that are tight enough to stimulate circulation.
I hate wearing them. They are tight, especially just under my knees and they make me itch like crazy. I try to avoid wearing them at all costs.
So what do I do? Take my leg out for a walk. That's right, I think of my leg as a pet that needs to be walked everyday.
I almost never feel the pain when I have "walked" my leg. I need to be out there walking my leg at least 30 minutes everyday.
And then there is the walking itself. I used to be able to walk hours and hours outside without feeling tired. Now I've noticed that I sometimes feel exhausted when I am walking. I'll be charging along and all of a sudden I'll have an overwhelming urge to sit down, like I just don't have the energy and stamina to continue. This never used to happen before.
So I wonder about the old lades. If I feel like this now, how will I feel if and when I reach their age? I shudder to think.
Am I crazy or has anybody else felt any changes as well?